Well lets see if i remember how to write on this xanga thing.  I remember when xanga was the shit. Going into Celebration cinema and hear amanda, carl, jaron, mike, nicole, phil and audrey talk about xanga and telling them to sign up. it was awesome i would sign on and there would be like 15 or 20 comments. now i look and these same people have 3 or 4 maxium. it is said. part of me wishes that i could could jump back a couple years. as much as we all did not like working there i still love that place. i miss the old sneaks (even if there was only 4 people there "swimfan"), $1 pretzel combo with a slushy in the 32 oz cups, even the 9 am employee meetings.

I am not complianing about my life now, i have meant a lot of new people and created some freinds that have become best freinds (shawn and Brad) and started talking to old friends from my childhood (dave). i would not trade these freindships for anything.

Over the past year i have went out to the bar alot. and drank alot. Over the past couple months i have thought many times why? it is a waist. i miss doing the things that use to make me happy.

- Playing board Games even if it is mall madness lol (derek)

-candid pics on the beach

-seeing movies

-going to ridge ponit

- listing to sugar songs lol ( Petey Pablao "sugar" to start and Fall Out Boy "Sugar, We're Goin' Down" in the end

- long drives on the weekend

- laying on hills looking for things in the sky

just thinking about thing like that make sad. Memerois i am afriad to lose. Remembering things is great but i dont want to lose them

i wish i had a dvd of my life. i would watch it right now i would replay chapter 18 a baigillion times

well its late cya

7 months 11 day later im back

This is probally going to shock everybody ( justin updating)

well that is because myspace is way better

So i am excited for the weekend lots of Grand Haven, Danas party, and the club

no one probally is going to read this

get at me with comments i might update again

if you want to hang out get at me

peace

GOOD BYE

This is probably my last post on this xanga

I will always love you Uofmichigan4ever

I will always wonder what if....the rest of my life

what if.....

what if.....

what if.....

the list

10) The Drive-in

9) Cedar Point

8) Celebration Ball

7) Your Graduation Party's

6) Prom

5) Bob's cabin (star watching in tell 3 am)

4) The trampoline (first)

3) Higgins Lake

2) Cop on the top of a hill

1) MUSKEGON BEACH ( holy cow)

Wow, in the last 10 days I have updated 8 times. Xanga and me are good friends again. Best Friends. I always am writing stuff and then deleting it.

I know what I want and who I want.

I know what is best for me and what I cant handle.

I know that God will lead me in the right direction. I do ask him all the time. not every night like I should but quite a bit.

I know the best church service I was ever at in my life was 3 weeks ago. In Ann Arbor.

I know I will always remember that service. The feelings I had and the thoughts I had. As I listened to them speak .

I know this seems crazy and extreme to some of you.

I know that I am doing this for me

I know I still look at Cassiopeia every night (I think I am looking at the right stars) and wish you were there to hug

I know that 2 days a week are a lot better then 0 days a week

I know I have changed

I know that I don't regret much but, I do regret the way I have acted.

I know I saw the best thing ever on someones xanga I bearly even know.

I know that the headliner on there xanga is true

I know that I dont want to go threw life wondering WHAT IF..

I know that I love my family

I know they love me

I know I made a goals list.

I know that I will succesed

I know that my friends are 100 % behind me no matter what it is. I love you guys for that.

(Cassiopeia)